thx friend!

it was 5.04 am
an im still awake
tryin to do my assignment
i was so sad
i wish i could have some1 to accompany me
some dat i could talk to rite now

but mok gone for sleep
so i decided to call a friend of mine
as i was so stress n i feel lyke crying

im glad dat he pick up my call eventhough he was sleeping
im glad i didnt have to dial his number over and over again

i cried....
"cengeng-he said.
"aaa..biar lah.suke hati laaaaa- im defending myself
"anak manja- he said
"@#$%^&*&^%$#....setan..aku stress nieh!@#$%^&*&^..suke ati la anak manje ke ape ke.......- i cursed him
i told him about my stress
we chit chat
and lastly...he makes me laugh with his jokes
i feel much better now

im glad dat he understand my situation
im glad dat i have sum1 to share my problem with
im happy dat i still have him by my side


i was so touched when he said " just call me when u need some1 to talk to..anytime. i will be dat some1"

owh..i feel lyke crying again

thx...

emotionally unstable

i went back to clgge diz morning and arrived here diz afternoon.
on my way....start from ampang lrt station till i reach muadzam
i tried to call him
but he seems never care to answer
i even texted him
yet he never reply

at last.around 1.30
i manage to talk to him(after more than dozens call dat i make)
i feel so messed up since i left my car key back at kl
i hope..there's sum1 dat could cool me down
yes.he did his part of his part
after done the talkin
he texted me sayin dat i dun even asked him how's he doin
again
i try to call him..so many times
n yet..there's no1 seems to care to pick up the phone

at 4.30
i manage to talk to him
n he seems to merajuk since i dun ask him how is he doing
(ok.fine)

at 5.15pm..i call him until 630 (over n over again)
but as usuall..no one pick up the phone

at 8..at last i manage to talk to him.

**yes..i am sad with his way of treating me lyke diz.but i keep telling myself dat i need to understand his situation.**

just now..i call him
and he raised up his voice to me.
i was
shocked.
sad.

and now i cry. again.

i put him as priority in my life
treat him as one

**i wonder where did i stand in his life**

saturday, august 23

it's been awhile since my 1st post..(heh..baru 1 hari x write..dh kire awhile?)
i miss my mok so much
he told me dat he's gone to malacca for the rugby game
but..i feel a bit of..sad..as he never call me or even text me yet!
:(
yeah..i knew..i need to understand his situation.
bz..didnt have phone since he claimed dat his phone was dropped into the water when he try to answer my cl while he's fishing
but hey..im damn fucking missing you la!!!!!!!!

i make peach pudding today
if mok was at his place
im sure im gonna bring dat to him
damn!!i miss him laaaaaa

i make sum crazy things lately
eey asked me to create a facebook account as she only active on fb
so i did
n i arrised sum issue to my mok
bla bla bla
so i went crazy
i decided to put my mok pic as my profile pic
and i added some of his friends
hahaha
i even thinkin to make a flyers and distribute it at cj stating dat he is taken by me
well..mok suggest me to make a banner or newpaper ads. sounds interesting sayang.
hurm..i guess it's time for me to practise some of my marketing studies here
:P
syg..when i get crazy..i'll be CRAZY

today i went to 2 wedding
1st is abg dean's wedding - my dad's cousins
2nd is my dad's fwen daughters'
i feel fat!
tonite i need to attend sum1 engagement ceremony
ahhhhhhhhhhh..mkn lagi!!

next week is going to be hell for me

i need to submit my individual project on monday
present it on tuesday
test on wednesday
class on thursay
replacement on friday
went to kuantan on saturday!
oi!!!bile nye nk jumpe mok niehhhhhhh
on d next monday dah nk puasa...dah x boleh buat maksiat..huhu :P



love,
emylia

first

this is my first post for this blog
due to unstable emotions, i deleted my 1st blog.
i was doing my assignment while writing on this post+chatting with my mok +watching goda.
today episode of goda really inspired me to write on this post
it's all about why guys wanna have 2 girl in their life.
if a girl did that..guyz usually rate it as slut or bitch.but if a guy did it? i wonder how do they rate their species?cool or macho? hurm.u tell me!


i was in the swing2 moody mood since yesterday
i cried.again.and again.and all over again.

until now
i wish that i have "that" recognition from my mok
i wonder why?when?
hurm. only my mok can answer me



love,
emylia